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On Life and Death

TW: Death.

Friday, October 4th, 2012, around 11:30am. The campus painting studio was busy with quiet chatter and smelled heavily of turpentine. I was standing in front of a wet canvas with brush in hand, getting ready to make the next stroke when my phone vibrated against the can I was using to hold water. I would have ignored and called back later–there was only half an hour until our lunch break.

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Some stuff is shitty, some is not so shitty. So I’ll go with the shitty stuff first, yeah.
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Murrr… Not much to really say. Life goes on, that’s how it works. Worked a bit a few weeks ago, bought things, need to update sites, etc. Computer’s continuing to give me problems from hell, must reformat but need to get ahold of my brother and get the XP cd from him to do so -.-

Threw some random artstuffs on DA, woo.

Just feel kinda… blah lately. Not much to really do, I guess. New layout soon, maybe if I feel like it.

Really need to get myself out of this hump ~_~

Guess I’ll probably feel better when con season rolls in for good. If I’m lucky it’s looking like I’ll be hitting Fanime, (not sure but way possible) AKON, AX, (possibly) Otakon, JTAF, (Possibly) AM and Yaoicon this year. Go me. I’ll be completely flat broke.

This year’s costumes so far…
Kamio, Shinji, Hiyoshi, Niou, Yukimura, Ryou, Selphie, Envy, Shige. Those are just the definate/already done ones ~_~

I think I’m done now.

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Fleh… been kinda out of it lately… Found on on Saturday that a family friend died of cancer.. We found out she had it back in like November or something.. =/ Eileen was the person who taught me most of what I know about eventing and dressage. She’s the one that would take me out on one of her horses for hours on end, lunging me over jumps and not letting me use my hands so I would learn how to balance and stuff.. =/ She’s the one I got my second pony from after we had to put Sandy down for cancer. *sigh* Me and mum sat in the living room hugging and crying on each other’s shoulders for hours after we found out.. We haven’t been able to get ahold of Tory or Evrette yet, they’re probably totally beside themselves. I feel bad that we didn’t go and see her while we had the chance.. I haven’t seen her in a couple years. I don’t think my mum even called either.. But.. Eileen was the kind of person who wouldn’t want anyone to see her sick.. and I think part of me [and mum] didn’t WANT to see her sick.. she was always happy and outgoing and in good health. I mean like, if we had went and seen her, what would we say? “Oh, I’m sorry you’re dying.”? Mum said she was gonna call her husband and ask when the service was gonna be.. at least we can go to that and pay some respects.. I guess all I can say now is,, rest in peace, Eileen Maki. You’ve helped me so much throughout my childhood, and for that, I thank you.

Happier note, my Shinji plush came on friday, it was sitting right in front of my tv all day and I didn’t notice it until like 3 am. My tv = right next to my moniter. Also, giftie from Echiko

Thankies, dear.

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Saaa~~ Thanks for the gifties, everyone ^0^ Didn’t really do much today, ended up not going to the DMV to get my id like I had originally planned.. I overslept xD; I’m getting my new domains when my brother gets back from tahoe, yatta ^0^

Pluggies for gifties! Eda, Sachiko, Kiku numbaa 1, Cynthia, and Linda.

The gifties! Only Sachi’s is shown cuz it’s the only one that’ll fit without resizing, the rest are behind linkies ^0^

Kiku’s, Cynthia’s, Linda’s, and Eda’s. *squeals* Eda drew me the Jyousei Shota Twinzzz :D :D :D :D *worship*

PoT 99 was released on fansub this afternoon, I’m determined to stay awake until it’s downloaded and I have watched it xD; …20 hours.. >.> but then again I’m also donwloading some mp3s so it should pick up when those are done ^0^

I sent off my payment for my Shinji [Ibu Shinji, that is. Not that pussy Ikari Shinji] plushie yesterday [the 7th..] and they got the payment and shipped it today xD; yatta! I should have it by next week ehehehehe <3 Fudoumine Shinji-kun~~

Lesse.. what else.. I finished downloading an episode of Peacemaker Kurogane when I woke up this afternoon, I like this series :D I’ll have to get my brother to burn it for me =3 And I need to burn off some freaking PoT xD; like nearly 20 gigs of my hdd is PoT eps o.o;

Hm.. Got a new ISP yesterday, but so far it’s not being very spiffy.. Still kicks me off every four hours ~__~ someone find me a cheap [dialup] isp that doesn’t require a credit card that lets me stay on as long as I want >< Sa.. I need to get off my butt and switch the Farfie fanlisting, Omi fanlisting and Nittle Grasper fanlisting over to php fanbase >< that is gonna be such a pain in the freaking arse.. lol. Too many people love them >< Maybe I'll do that in a little while.. sounds like a plan. I’m slightly dissappointed though.. none of my [irl] friends even called to say happy birthday ._. Demo.. my mom made me a pot roast and bought me a lemon cake ^-^ I haven’t been hungry enough to eat any of the cake yet though.. and I only ate a little tiny bit of pot roast.. appetite isn’t much =/ *huggles her momma* I’m going to go do other things like pester people. Jya~

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