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Kiikaa, I love you!! *sniffles* You, my dear, are my hero and muse ;_;

fleh.. Mum’s talking to me again, she told me she was really depressed but didn’t tell me why.. though I think I can figure it out myself.. I made a random layout for my graphics site earlier, probably will make a couple more xP yeay. *feeling creative* demo, I can’t think of anything to make a new layout with for my bloggie! o_o; ^^;

I’m watching Lassie.. heh. Old Skoo~~ which reminds me, my mum’s dog decided it would be fun to gnaw on my Platina discs for Apo/0 >_< brat! They were sitting in their baggie on top of my tower.. why out of all the books and stuff on there did she choose that ;__; *clings to Sachi* sankyuuuuuu for offering to send me a new copy xP I love you~!

mleh…. I feel horrible.. I made mum cry without meaning to.. in my entire 18 years on this planet, I’ve NEVER seen her break down and cry.. She won’t even talk to me now ;_; I tried telling her I was sorry and she wouldn’t even look at me..

Alright.. this is how.. K, my computer is on the floor behind the couch, and my mum was on the couch watching tv.. I turned around and patted her cheek and woke her up [I couldn’t see her face so I didn’t know she was asleep…] and she was like “why can’t you just leave me alone!” “go away!” then started crying.. like actually shaking and sobbing.. then she went to her room and wouldn’t talk to me or look at me when I tried to apologize.. She came back out a little while ago and wouldn’t talk to me when I tried talking to her then either.. then she went back into her room and hasn’t come out since..

god dammit, I’m such a bad fucking daughter. I don’t ever do anything for her, never do anything she asks me to.. ;__;

.. I’m sorry momma.. dammit I hate crying. ima go now.

ugh, been hectic lately ~_~ my sister called at 4 am the other day basically just to scream at me for not writing her a letter, screaming at me to tell her where her dad is, to wake mum up and stuff, giving me the usual death threats -.- told me if i didn’t wake mom up i should just kill her, bash her upside the head with the phone if i had to to wake her up -_- blah blah blah more death threats, saying that if i don’t prove i’m her sister, then i’m her enemy and she’s gonna kill all her enemies etc -.- fucking psychotic bitch. needless to say she’s in the mental hospital for the third time in the last 6 months -.-

oh yeah, and 3 hours after those 20 calls (i kept hanging up on her because she wouldn’t stop screaming at me when i asked her not to), we get another call saying that a family friend that i’ve known since i was a little kid and pretty much taught me most of what i know about dressage and stuff only has an estimated 6 months to live from cancer ~_~ BLAH not happiness -.-

good news is, michelle said she has room for khisme, and will haul her up for me in a couple weeks too. that’ll make me happeh~ i want my horse back ;_; Oh yeah, got a couple more yaoi games in the mail yesterday from a friend, weee ^_^ Sachi, Echi, i’ll burn those for you too when I send ^^ what else.. oh yeah~~ My dear Tofu-chan sent me the Apo/0 drama album ^____^ *luvs* Andu.. The episode of Loki I just watched HAS to be the funniest one xDD The looks on Fenrir’s face through the whole thing… xDD;; When my photoshop stops being prickish, I’ll take some screencaps xD Man that episode had everything., including adult Loki *-*

It’s been really cold lately too -.- Major suckage. doesn’t get any higher than about 40 degrees, and lowest is about 25 ;_; farking cold! Oh yeah, I’m getting a new domain (along w/ukepile) soon, but I dunno what to call it! help me~~~ gimme ideas xP

…new layout soon, too :D

blah ~_~ bored, cold and lonely. so I’m going to gripe and whine about how much this fucking town sucks. Have no contact with people, seeings how even though this should be the middle of my senior year I’m not in school, and not like there’s really anything to do to actually go MEET people. the only places I actually go are safeway, the post office, rhea ann’s and the vet clinic, and i’ve only even been to the clinic once >_> make that soon to be twice when I go with my mum to help em move stuff before they repaint the place.. ~_~ Speaking of post office, I should’ve gone today when mum woke me up at 2, but went back to sleep..

Maybe even though I took the test and passed, so am technically out of high school.. I could probably go back and attempt to get a real diploma.. wait. there was a reason I took the test to get out. because everyone was a fucking moron, they didn’t teach me anything and I could’ve recited the fucking books to them >_> seriously. Charpiot, my US History teacher in junior year, I had him for US history in EIGHTH FUCKING GRADE.

Dammit I miss Santa Rosa and Petaluma ;_; so much it makes me want to cry, and I HATE crying. very few people ever have seen me cry.. maybe 4.. lesse.. Todd has, Alex, Morgan.. and.. if anyone else, I don’t remember who. Fuck. I don’t even know what to write ~__~ So I’m going to go wallow in self pity and continue on my path of stereotypical teenage angst. This is Bob Barker signing out, saying chickens and hens ARE the same thing, because Yvon the fisherman said so. [Thank you, Nevoi]

oh yeah, for those of you who were interested, I uploaded Open up your mind – Chinese version from Saiyuki. It’s really pretty. You should get it. Just don’t murder teh ukepile’s bandwidth. I only got about 15 gigs left for this month :P

and oh yeah. someone buy me this because it’s purty. Have fun at school, kids

Apo/0 games came the other day, fweee ^_^ To celebrate, MY LJ got a new layout >=) Then… u.u I reformatted my hard drive about an hour ago, downloading all the freaking windows updates >_< estimated 305 more minutes till it's done u.u that's like.. 5 hours or something >_>

ANYWAY. This song is really pretty… This version anyway.. The Chinese/Cantonese/Mandarin/whatever the hell you wanna call the language ^_^ (it just says chinese.. and as far as I know chinese is only a written language.. *shrugs*) version of Open Up your Mind from Gensomaden Saiyuki ^_^ I mean.. the original version was good too, I just think this one sounds prettier ^_^ Ooohh.. someone remind me to go to the post office later! I’ve gotta go send payments off for a Whistle! doujinshi (no yaoi, unfortunately.. it’s sad, I know ._.) and an english Kenshin doujin ^_^ hurrah for American doujin artists =3 And it’s Soujiro too.. <3 Soujiro *-*

BWAHAHA. I’m too damn nice for my own good xD Burning 2 copies of the Alex and Platina discs, and 3 of the Fan Box for people xP oooh yeah.. OI!! Sachiko! Echiko! Gotta couple random more caps and clips from the Fan Box for ya ^_^ Hit me up on aim or something =3 andu.. FWEEE! only 8 more hours till my Rag ep is done xPPP HMMM!!! what to do, what to do.. gonna wait till later to reinstall my ftp stuffez.. maybe I’ll like make another layout for something or something.. I could make a new layout for here cuz like it’s been up for a month but HEY I LIKE my LOKI layout ^_^

…..*is rambling now*

…..someone save me from myself ._.